September 10, 2008 by DreA.

Well today was not a good one. Work was so busy and stressful. It is one of those weeks that I have to reorganize every morning otherwise I will get so behind and something will be forgotten. Keeping myself, 1 V.P. , 5 managers, and approx 350 employees and their demands straight can be draining. I get so frustrated with everyone thinking their situation is so urgent, but that is my job I guess. I just smile and say, “I’ll get it done!” To top it all off, Ben is not doing well. I don’t know if he is teething or bored with life or what, but he has had yucky diapers and has been fussy. Today was different though. It was the first time that I “got the call” from Jen telling me he wasn’t having a good day. I must admit, it was very hard to hear. From the first day I went back to work after having Ben, I have had hard days leaving him behind, but I have felt good knowing that he is in a loving home. Today hearing my little boy wasn’t feeling well, crying the majority of the day, probably just wanting mamma…well it was my first “working mom breakdown”. I hate that I cannot be with him. I am probably one of those odd mother’s who even with the stress, I enjoy working (I wish it was part-time though). I do hate that he has to have these days, feeling yucky, just wanting mommy time. Ugh, it stinks. I got him home, he showed no signs of being sick. Sometimes mommy and daddy are the best medicine.

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September 8, 2008 by DreA.

So I admit once again I am no good at keeping my little bloggette updated. It’s been a quick summer. We have had loads of fun, from vacation to the beaches of Florida, First birthdays, Peach pickin, zoo trips, we have packed it in. I really do live for being busy. Last weekend we had no plans, it made me kind of nervous. Probably a sign of something I need to fix about myself. I don’t relax well, I never have. I look forward to things to do, it makes my week go by more quickly.

Ben is getting to be your classic toddler, he’s so cute. He just walks around, and is so interested in everything. It can be so draining, I feel like all I do is tell him no, or some form of the word no. It is already September, my little baby boy is walking and starting to talk. I just cannot believe how quickly this whole thing goes. I don’t have “baby fever” as of yet, but I do miss just cuddling my little Ben. So for now, I will keep my family busy and try to enjoy every minute of my little man.

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March 6, 2008 by DreA.

So I have been horrible at updating this, and for that I am sorry. I am committing to at least making one entry a month.

Right now, Ben is 8 months old. I just can’t believe it! He is growing so quickly and learning new things everyday. He is a very curious little boy. INTO EVERYTHING. He definitely keeps us on our toes. I signed him up for Swim lessons, they begin at the end of the month. I am hoping it will get him comfortable with water….for a fun summer of swimming and water play! YEAH! Robert starts days on May 1st. I am super excited about that. I can’t wait to have a little help at night and in the morning….AND we will see each other so much more. Oh! We just moved to O’Fallon, Missouri. We are in a duplex. It is much more ‘homey’ than our other place, we are loving having a yard and stuff. Anyway, I guess we are doing well. I will try to update soon!

Here are some recent pics of Ben…on the go!

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November 4, 2007 by DreA.

Boy it has been a while, it is amazing how quickly time passes. Robert and I had a great weekend away. YUMMY dinner at the melting pot.

Things at home seem to be going well. I still feel very tired. I can’t seem to get what I need to done. I feel like my house is constantly a mess. It is probably due to the space in our living room. Babystuff from Wall to Wall. I can’t even imagine where we are going to put a Christmas tree. Ugh it stresses me out. I want so badly to have things homey and livable. Anyway, enough whining. Ben had his 4 month appt this week. He is doing so good. He weighs 13lbs 6oz and is 24inches long. He is getting so big! He is up to par on his development so far. He is getting so interactive and making it more and more fun to be around him every day. My favorite thing right now….his cute little giggle. That makes my day.

Here are few recent pics!

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October 14, 2007 by DreA.

Well, its been quite a two weeks.

*Ben had his first professional pictures done. They turned out great! I will try to post a few next week.

We went to the pumpkin patch….Ben got hot and tired. I know “Hot?” It was uncomfortably hot last Saturday, which is ridiculous for October.

He is still sleeping through the night, so YEAH! It wasn’t just a phase. I am starting to feel normal again. I do go through rough patches. I am learning how to balance all of life’s roles. Mother, wife, daughter, it’s not easy. I guess I always thought this was what I was meant to do, and it would be as easy as pie for me. Well, it isn’t. I try to make the best of my time, but I feel guilty 80% of the time, for not always making the right decisions. I’m sure I’ll figure it all out someday. I am just thankful that although I may be frustrating, I have an understanding husband, that tries his best to do what we need. This coming weekend, Robert and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary. We have been through so much this year and I am so blessed to have him. I’ll elaborate more on that next week. Until then, say a prayer for me….Ben will have his first “overnight” without us! I know he’ll be fine, I just hope I will!

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September 30, 2007 by DreA.

Well it has been quite a week. Mom was supposed to have surgery but was moved to Monday, so say a prayer. I feel like it was a whirlwind week…it just flew by! I cannot believe it is already October. Ben is 3 months old, boy has time flown by! He is getting so fun. Full of smiles and starting to coo and giggle, I just love it. We had to postpone his portraits till next week. I am really excited for them now that he is smiling so much. Let’s see what else is going on…OH! Ben was able to meet two of his new friends this weekend. Ronnin was in town from Kansas City with her new little one Justus, and Jessica left Seattle for a visit with her little Max. Now Max has not made his way into the world quite yet, but Im sure he still enjoyed being around his friends. We had a blast this weekend. I really miss my friends, but I am so grateful that we have all remained close for the past 14 years. It is fun to see all of our lives unfolding and starting families and discussing what our next steps are gonna be. We all have been blessed with great husbands and beautiful children (though we haven’t “seen” Max yet, I’m sure he is beautiful) Below are the pics of the week. I love sharing these with you!

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September 23, 2007 by DreA.

Well, I am sure of it…I have the sweetest baby ever! He is doing so well, and getting so big. This week, although still a little rough, made me feel like I am gonna be able to do this! Ben started sleeping through the night! YEAH! YIPPEE! He is doing so well! He is starting to do some baby talk, which is sooo cute, and the smiles are coming more regularly. I LOVE IT! I feel like we are having actual interaction. Time is flying by so quickly, I just can’t believe it. In one month Rob and I will be married a year. It has been the most amazing year, we have experienced alot, and I love him more and more every day. He has been such an amazing husband, through ALL of my pre and post baby ups and downs, and now I am seeing what a wonderful daddy he is. I am so blessed. I know he feels sometimes like he should be able to provide more and our living arrangements should be better…but I have never been happier. All of those things will come with time. We now have a handsome and amazing little boy, and things didn’t go quite like planned to get him here, so it may take a little longer to get to where he wants us. We just have to remember that we are exactly where God wants us. I love my boys and can’t wait to see what all God has in store for us!
Here are some recent pics of the blessings in my life:

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September 9, 2007 by DreA.

It has been 2 weeks back to work. I wont lie, it has been rough. I have not been super emotional about the whole thing, of course I miss Ben….a WHOLE lot, but what I am having the most trouble with is a routine. UGH, I never thought I would have so much trouble. This past week was really rough for me. With Ben not sleeping much, and Robert working nights…I was just worn out. I felt like a bad mom, and wife, because I feel like I am not efficiently doing what I am “supposed” to do at home. My house seems like it gets so messy, and in the mornings no matter how early I wake up, I feel like I am running around to get things done. Now, we did switch Ben’s formula this week…so I am hoping that it helps his sleeping. My fingers are crossed that I will be able to establish some sort of routine for us at night, throughout the night, and in the morning. Meanwhile, *sigh* I am missing my husband tonight.
Here’s Me ready for my first day back to work, and Ben’s reaction about going to his babysitter for the first time!

This is how we get our Zzz’s:

Here’s the funny Ben Pic of the week:

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August 26, 2007 by DreA.

Well tomorrow is the big day! I go back to work. I must admit it is bittersweet. There are people there I miss (I’m sure that will go away after a couple days). I haven’t been there since the middle of May, so I am kinda scared about going back. Will I remember everything? How much has changed? It’s gonna be so weird. Say a prayer for us. Since Robert works nights, I will be doing all this by myself….and Ben is FAR from sleeping any amount of consecutive hours. I hope I am not a zombie at work. I keep telling myself..I’m gonna be okay. I will be dropping Ben off in the morning, which is gonna be so strange, but I know he will be fine! He is gonna be with one of the people I trust the most. He is getting so big, so quickly. He started holding his head up really good this week, he looks like such a big boy! I will put a picture of his new achievement! I’ll let you know how my week went next Sunday!

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August 20, 2007 by DreA.

I have one week left, I can’t believe it. I go back to work next Monday. It is definately a bittersweet thing. I have not been to work since the middle of May! It will be partly nice to feel like I am using my brain again, but it will be really hard to leave Ben. Luckily it will be with someone I trust. He is getting so big, and he is starting to “do” stuff. It is kind of sad that I might be missing things that happen for the first time, but tons of mothers all over the world work….I’ll be fine. Anyway, my little man is getting so big! I can’t believe it! Today both Rob and I thought he looked chubbier all of the sudden. SOOO CUTE! I could just eat him up! It is going to be a busy week. I have alot of running around to do, and Friday is my last “family fun day” with all three of us…. I hope we do something fun!

Rob is going to kill me, but this is one of my favorites. Gosh, I love my boys!

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